Sometimes I wonder if people would even notice if I was gone. I'm nothing special and I'm mostly a waste of space. The only times I could be useful, there's someone that's better than me at it.

02 July 2026

I have started giving up on wanting things really badly. It's better to not have any expectations than to have them crushed. Patience is something I only have so much of, but I always need to have more than the others. My needs are not a priority for anyone and I know that now.

03 July 2026

I feel like I'm wasting my life. The fear of branching out and being refused is too much. I wish I was brave enough to do the things I wish I could. And I wish I could have someone to cheer me through it.

04 July 2026

Maybe it's alright not to always do something with your life. Sometimes you need to take a break and regroup. Distracting yourself with something else so the pain eases down a bit. We all deserve a break.

05 July 2026

I wish I could socialise more easily, that I wasn't always with an "angry" face. I can't help it if that's how I usually look, but I also can't help but want to connect. Being such a shy and quiet kid never helped me, and I find that as I get older, those traits are still in me, regardless of how much I try to not show them. I feel so alone everyday.

06/07 July 2026